This might be too much information for my male readers. Oh well. I continue.
In the last two years, my body has changed A LOT. I went from being pregnant to nursing for 15 months to getting pregnant again to having a miscarriage to now... my body has changed including my boobs. There I said boob on my blog. Yes, I have gone through a number of bras. My mom even bought me nursing bras for my birthday last year. Hey, I was pumped.
Over the weekend, I was in this mood to finally go through my dresser drawer and organize my bras, sports bras, socks and undies. What a job. The majority of stuff in these drawers either (1.) doesn't fit or (2.) is so old. I am talking like 10 years old. Yeah some things are that old. I have been dreading this job for months. Why? I think it has to do with body image issues. Sure, part of me wishes I could still wear some of the things I wore in college. I think it also has to do with money. Sure, I hate to get rid of it because there is a lot of money in those drawers. Have you seen how much bras cost these days? Yikes. My male readers, you have no idea what us women go through.
Plus, I have been running a lot these days. Wearing an uncomfortable sports bra while running 4 miles is so not cool.
I finally got the courage to purge. While Madilyn napped, I went through it all. I threw so much stuff out.
I also got the courage to go out and buy new. I let go of the money guilt. As a stay at home mama, it has been hard for me to spend money on myself. I would rather put the money into our house or my growing business or save for Madilyn's college (which is estimated to cost $500,000 in 18 years - YIKES!). It is a struggle for me to drop $50 on a new bra. It never really seemed to be a priority to me. I have realized, though, that I deserve it. This mama needs a bra that she loves. I deserve it. For goodness sakes, I wear one every damn day. I deserve to wear one that fits. So, I bought 4.
Do you have a hard time letting go of things? Do you struggle spending money on yourself? I would love to hear your story.